Sunday, 24 October, 2010
Tuesday, 19 October, 2010
do you like chocolate?
I don't love chocolate, but once in a blue moon I crave it. I think I haven't even had chocolate in months really. If I'm going to eat chocolate, it'll be a chocolate bar - usually a Mars Bar. Yum!!!
Wednesday, 13 October, 2010
My Endo Diet
So the question is...how is it going?
The answer is...pretty good.
More details?
Alright. Well, I've been pretty faithful to it for over two weeks now. Maybe it's even three. I'm not sure. I lost count and that's a good thing. I have been choosing not to view it as a diet, but a lifestyle change...because that's exactly what it is. When I go to the doctor in whenever my appointment is (I made the appointment...now I just have to wait to hear when it is) I want to be able to say that I made a big effort at doing things for me and that I am seriously trying to get better.
What has changed? I only eat red meat once a week or else two very small meals a week. This is a hard thing, because I am borderline anemic and need the iron and my husband is Albertan (and therefore likes steak. A lot). For example, I made steak the other night and I just had a tiny little chunk - probably 1/3 or 1/4 of what I would eat before. I then saved a little bit for my lunch the next day and put it on my wrap. What else? I don't eat meat at every meal. Sometimes I just have eggs or avocado or something else that is a little more filling. Lunch is often a spinach whole wheat wrap (I can have 100% whole wheat, but that is hard to find...most things that claim to be whole wheat are only 60%) filled with veggies and goat cheese. Dinners are modified whatever I make for Jordon - we had french toast the other night, so I just made myself eggs and mixed it with veggies. I still don't eat breakfast. I can't - barf. I am eating white rice and so far found it hasn't made a difference. I'm still also eating goat's cheese and small amounts of caffeine. I put rice milk in my coffee in the morning and a little bit of turbinado sugar. I've also switched most of my buying habits to organic. Except bananas. I don't like bananas anyways and my husband complained about the taste - I tried them - they do taste different.
Is it hard? Not as hard as it was the first few days and not as hard as I expected (I know, Leah...I'm waiting for the told you so). It's taking time to get used to actively making myself lunch and dinner everyday - it does take a lot longer, but it's not so bad. I find myself getting creative now. I also find it harder to make the effort to pack a lunch if we go somewhere, etc. It's hard when I go to my mom's house for dinner and it's hard when we go out for dinner - I know I'm doomed to have a salad...and some places make pretty gross salads.
Have I cheated? Yes and no. I am allowed minimal quantities of most of my restricted food...so it's not really cheating if I have something I'm not "supposed" to have. What have I cheated with? I've had a proper Starbucks drink (a pumpkin spice latte to be exact) and obviously indulged in turkey dinner - most things were okay, but there is loads of sugar in my mom's cranberry sauce as well as milk in the gravy and white flour in the stuffing. For the most part though I've stuck to what I'm allowed and found alternatives where needed. Except for that chocolate cake my mom made me for my birthday. I ate it. Shut up. And it was good.
Is it working? Yes and no. I have noticed a decrease in my pain most nights. Not always, but I think there has been some change. Truly not so achy. I think that my biggest irritant is milk, unfortunately. On the day I had the full on pumpkin spice latte I ached like no other that night. White rice hasn't seemed to be bother me. I'd like to continue eating this way regardless, it is healthier, and we'll see how pain management continues.
Bonuses? I lost ten pounds :)
kortney elise xoxo
The answer is...pretty good.
More details?
Alright. Well, I've been pretty faithful to it for over two weeks now. Maybe it's even three. I'm not sure. I lost count and that's a good thing. I have been choosing not to view it as a diet, but a lifestyle change...because that's exactly what it is. When I go to the doctor in whenever my appointment is (I made the appointment...now I just have to wait to hear when it is) I want to be able to say that I made a big effort at doing things for me and that I am seriously trying to get better.
What has changed? I only eat red meat once a week or else two very small meals a week. This is a hard thing, because I am borderline anemic and need the iron and my husband is Albertan (and therefore likes steak. A lot). For example, I made steak the other night and I just had a tiny little chunk - probably 1/3 or 1/4 of what I would eat before. I then saved a little bit for my lunch the next day and put it on my wrap. What else? I don't eat meat at every meal. Sometimes I just have eggs or avocado or something else that is a little more filling. Lunch is often a spinach whole wheat wrap (I can have 100% whole wheat, but that is hard to find...most things that claim to be whole wheat are only 60%) filled with veggies and goat cheese. Dinners are modified whatever I make for Jordon - we had french toast the other night, so I just made myself eggs and mixed it with veggies. I still don't eat breakfast. I can't - barf. I am eating white rice and so far found it hasn't made a difference. I'm still also eating goat's cheese and small amounts of caffeine. I put rice milk in my coffee in the morning and a little bit of turbinado sugar. I've also switched most of my buying habits to organic. Except bananas. I don't like bananas anyways and my husband complained about the taste - I tried them - they do taste different.
Is it hard? Not as hard as it was the first few days and not as hard as I expected (I know, Leah...I'm waiting for the told you so). It's taking time to get used to actively making myself lunch and dinner everyday - it does take a lot longer, but it's not so bad. I find myself getting creative now. I also find it harder to make the effort to pack a lunch if we go somewhere, etc. It's hard when I go to my mom's house for dinner and it's hard when we go out for dinner - I know I'm doomed to have a salad...and some places make pretty gross salads.
Have I cheated? Yes and no. I am allowed minimal quantities of most of my restricted food...so it's not really cheating if I have something I'm not "supposed" to have. What have I cheated with? I've had a proper Starbucks drink (a pumpkin spice latte to be exact) and obviously indulged in turkey dinner - most things were okay, but there is loads of sugar in my mom's cranberry sauce as well as milk in the gravy and white flour in the stuffing. For the most part though I've stuck to what I'm allowed and found alternatives where needed. Except for that chocolate cake my mom made me for my birthday. I ate it. Shut up. And it was good.
Is it working? Yes and no. I have noticed a decrease in my pain most nights. Not always, but I think there has been some change. Truly not so achy. I think that my biggest irritant is milk, unfortunately. On the day I had the full on pumpkin spice latte I ached like no other that night. White rice hasn't seemed to be bother me. I'd like to continue eating this way regardless, it is healthier, and we'll see how pain management continues.
Bonuses? I lost ten pounds :)
kortney elise xoxo
Sunday, 10 October, 2010
Thanksgiving
I am thankful for so much in my life everyday - most nights I go to bed not believing my life is really my life I'm so thankful. And so, without further ado, in grade 2 list style...
I am thankful for:
I am thankful for:
- A beautiful daughter - she means more than anyone without children could ever know. She is my everything and I love her to its and bits. I love being able to wake up each day and watch her grow.
- A husband who loves me...and a best friend to live with always. I am thankful that we forgive each other when we fight and in the end I know we'll be together always.
- My mom. I don't know what I'd do without my mom and I often wonder why we fought so much when I was younger. I need her, love her, and respect all her advice and dreams for me.
- My dad. Watching him with Alexys has only made my love for him grow.
- My brothers - I love 'em and am glad that even though we're at very different points in our lives, they're my little brothers and I care about them more than they even realize.
- My in-law family - Lorilee, Perry, Nicole and Garrett, Matt, Kayla, and Jared...I'm thankful for them coming out here and fixing Jord's car last month and for just being them!
- The roof over my head. It's hard to not always want more, but the fact that we've just hit our mid-20s and have owned our own house for over two years is something to be proud of and thankful for.
- The little things in life (or maybe biggish things too): Cars, TV, computer, dishwashers, breadmakers, coffee pots, and all the electronic devices I've come to depend on every day.
- My friends. I have the best friends anyone could ask for...and I mean that - I'm stubborn, argumentative, and a little bit of a hermit. And yet, they're still my friends: Jac, Bre, and Court, I depend on you guys everyday...
- My friendship with Anne, who is oh so far away. I'm so glad she's my baby's godmother - I know she's being prayed for every single day. I'm glad that every time we pick up on the phone it's like we talked yesterday.
- For skating. How can I not be thankful for skating? So thankful that I have a team and a coach (who's also a very good friend to me, Danalee) who lets me come out and just hang out once a week to skate for myself and not so much for them.
- My job and my coworkers and my bosses. I have been blessed beyond words with a job that is fun, exciting, pays well, is flexible...and that I can do in my pink slippers, sweats, and as I please. I'm thankful for the friends I've met and talk to everyday.
- A Savior and God who loves me the way I am - in all my imperfections, glitches, and daily failures to live for Him.
Thursday, 7 October, 2010
Day Off
I took the day off from life today a little bit...well, my normal life.
Normally on Thursdays I skate and therefore take the evening off work to do that. But tonight? Nothing. I didn't go skating. I sat on the couch, cuddled my baby, caught up on DWTS (I love this season!), and played Facebook games. I didn't log in to work (although I did check a few times, I'm neurotic like that). I just sorta did nothing.
I was feeling sick this afternoon, like seriously on the edge of the car seat ready to barf (Courtenay was driving, not me)...when we got back to her house I had to lie down on the couch for 20 minutes I felt so awful. I made dinner (toasted tomato, spinach, feta, and onion sandwiches for me if you'd like to know...with beets on the side) and just lazed around. I lied down for 45 minutes and just lied there (after Jord got home). I took it as my body's sign to me that I was crashing and I needed to just...chill.
Chilling is a hard thing for me. I hate chilling. I even struggle to nap unless I'm truly exhausted because my mind is going a mile a minute. It a good thing for me tonight. I was calm and that meant Alexys was too...and she went to sleep without a fight at all.
I liked tonight. I may indulge more often. I'm feeling better now mostly and am simply going to make Jord's lunch before I head to bed...before midnight...for the first time in months and months I think!!!
kortney elise xoxo
Normally on Thursdays I skate and therefore take the evening off work to do that. But tonight? Nothing. I didn't go skating. I sat on the couch, cuddled my baby, caught up on DWTS (I love this season!), and played Facebook games. I didn't log in to work (although I did check a few times, I'm neurotic like that). I just sorta did nothing.
I was feeling sick this afternoon, like seriously on the edge of the car seat ready to barf (Courtenay was driving, not me)...when we got back to her house I had to lie down on the couch for 20 minutes I felt so awful. I made dinner (toasted tomato, spinach, feta, and onion sandwiches for me if you'd like to know...with beets on the side) and just lazed around. I lied down for 45 minutes and just lied there (after Jord got home). I took it as my body's sign to me that I was crashing and I needed to just...chill.
Chilling is a hard thing for me. I hate chilling. I even struggle to nap unless I'm truly exhausted because my mind is going a mile a minute. It a good thing for me tonight. I was calm and that meant Alexys was too...and she went to sleep without a fight at all.
I liked tonight. I may indulge more often. I'm feeling better now mostly and am simply going to make Jord's lunch before I head to bed...before midnight...for the first time in months and months I think!!!
kortney elise xoxo
On Sleeping and Bottles
I just realized that I hadn't really posted on this topic and it's definitely something I want/need to address seeing as though we've had so many sleep issues in the past.
The short version? No more bottles and sleeping through the night!!!! We're well on our way to having a full fledged big girl in this house (well even bigger than she already is). I randomly decided one night to take away her bottle before bedtime and wham. It was done. It needed to be spur of the moment and it needed to be unplanned for me - I just didn't have the guts to hear her sad cry when she didn't get one at night. Yes, we did the bottle thing at night for maybe six months. It's what worked for us and I have no regrets. Everyone got sleep and that's what counted.
So how did it go? Well, seeing as though Alexys normally has a bottle to go to sleep she was none too impressed when we took her bottle away. We put her to bed without one and explained what we were doing. I simply told her that little tiny babies needed the bottle (we didn't name names...we thought that she might get angry at whoever we named) and that we had to give them all away and that we didn't have anymore. We gave her a sippy cup of milk before bed (which she didn't drink that first night) and a normal bedtime routine. We told her it was important that she learn to sleep like a big girl and have a consistent bedtime.
Consequently? She screamed for a good hour and a half. But I didn't give in. I went in just once to make sure those sad, sad tears were just sad and not hurt...I just reiterated what I told her before. She eventually fell asleep. She awoke a few hours later and once again screamed for hours. It was a long, long night. I went in and told her the same thing as before and eventually she slept again. What a noble concept to have a dry baby in the morning and not having to change the sheets and the whole shebang every single day!!!
The next night was slightly better. She drank her sippy cup of milk before bed (phew!) and only cried for 45 minutes. It got better and better and eventually she began to sleep all night.
Now? I find that some nights she does ask for her sippy cup for when she's falling asleep and I do give in some nights if she hasn't drank much before. Some nights she needs that extra little lulling herself to sleep. She does wake up once in the night some nights still and I usually leave her for a bit and if she doesn't settle herself she can have some water in her sippy cup.
Mybaby toddler isn't the perfect sleeper. She really doesn't need as much sleep as other kids her age, but that's okay. I love her to bits the way she is...even if mom needs more sleep than her 1-year-old.
kortney elise xoxo
The short version? No more bottles and sleeping through the night!!!! We're well on our way to having a full fledged big girl in this house (well even bigger than she already is). I randomly decided one night to take away her bottle before bedtime and wham. It was done. It needed to be spur of the moment and it needed to be unplanned for me - I just didn't have the guts to hear her sad cry when she didn't get one at night. Yes, we did the bottle thing at night for maybe six months. It's what worked for us and I have no regrets. Everyone got sleep and that's what counted.
So how did it go? Well, seeing as though Alexys normally has a bottle to go to sleep she was none too impressed when we took her bottle away. We put her to bed without one and explained what we were doing. I simply told her that little tiny babies needed the bottle (we didn't name names...we thought that she might get angry at whoever we named) and that we had to give them all away and that we didn't have anymore. We gave her a sippy cup of milk before bed (which she didn't drink that first night) and a normal bedtime routine. We told her it was important that she learn to sleep like a big girl and have a consistent bedtime.
Consequently? She screamed for a good hour and a half. But I didn't give in. I went in just once to make sure those sad, sad tears were just sad and not hurt...I just reiterated what I told her before. She eventually fell asleep. She awoke a few hours later and once again screamed for hours. It was a long, long night. I went in and told her the same thing as before and eventually she slept again. What a noble concept to have a dry baby in the morning and not having to change the sheets and the whole shebang every single day!!!
The next night was slightly better. She drank her sippy cup of milk before bed (phew!) and only cried for 45 minutes. It got better and better and eventually she began to sleep all night.
Now? I find that some nights she does ask for her sippy cup for when she's falling asleep and I do give in some nights if she hasn't drank much before. Some nights she needs that extra little lulling herself to sleep. She does wake up once in the night some nights still and I usually leave her for a bit and if she doesn't settle herself she can have some water in her sippy cup.
My
kortney elise xoxo
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